Wednesday, May 28, 2008

destroy YOUR pride

excuse me. pardon me... excuse me!

down here, yeah here.

YOU, SIR, are out of line!
YOU, SIR, are a disgrace to my kind!

here to mindlessly fill YOUR uncomfortable, lonely void!
feed YOUR lost, empty ego!
a manipulative tool used to salvage what is left of YOUR futility!

...and i, SIR, am the amazing one?
once again, i am mistaken.
once again, i am forsaken.

destroy YOUR pride! before your PRIDE destroys you!

love is fiction. written by a non-fiction writer.
based on memories that never genuinely happened.

who do YOU think i am. oh, powerful one....bursting of SELF-pride, SELF-pity. poor pitiful YOU. YOUR heart is broken and i digress.

...i digress.

* written in a hasty moment. fortunately, the moment has passed.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008


this definitely explains some things....haha

You're The Poisonwood Bible!

by Barbara Kingsolver

Deeply rooted in a religious background, you have since become both
isolated and schizophrenic. You were naively sure that your actions would help people,
but of course they were resistant to your message and ultimately disaster ensued. Since
you can see so many sides of the same issue, you are both wise beyond your years and
tied to worthless perspectives. If you were a type of waffle, it would be

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Monday, March 10, 2008

my way is hard to find

my biggest fear is that i will not fulfill my potential.

everyone has the chance to do something or be something great.
i want to be great. doesn't everyone?

i want to travel the world, go to graduate school, write a novel, fall in love, make a difference in this crazy world, raise a family, find a job i enjoy, impact lives by doing something that i can't live without, teach yoga classes in a park for free, inspire others to be great and do things they love with love, open a coffee shop and bakery with my sister, lots of things.

it's not so much how other people view me...but how i view myself.

sometimes i feel like i detour from MY path and take the long way, or the scenic route, only to get back to MY path... back to where i was supposed to be all along.

i think MY way is hard to find sometimes.

it took a world of trouble, a world of tears... it took a long time to get back here.

is that how life works? you're life is mapped out and if you stray from the path or make the wrong decisions, you simply go through some difficult times (the long way) to reach your destination?

sometimes i believe that and sometimes i don't.

does anyone else feel like that? like you take the long way...only to end up where you began?

do not settle for contentment, but opt for adventure and curiosity.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

falling up...into the stars

lay in the soft green grass on a cool summer night and be swallowed by the stars...with the faintness of lightening bugs glistening in the distance.

this is one way to temporarily escape from reality.
sometimes it's nice to get a while for a awhile.

i can't wait until summer :)

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

bush quotes on iran/war on terror

a voice for the people

today has been one of those hectic, chaotic days that happen more often than what i'd like.
to top off the night, i was reading an article about the recent veto from president bush.
he's an idiot. am i allowed to say that? oh well, i just did.

i admit, if i were old enough, i would have probably voted for him (the first time).

anyway when i was reading the article, i undoubtedly thought my head was going to explode.

the bill, which would have spent $35 billion over five years, would have doubled the number of children eligible for the state children's health program, providing health care to 10 million american children for the next 5 years, costing the u.s. $7 billion in annual costs, was vetoed by bush.

granted, $7 billion does seem like a lot of money, especially to someone who will never see that much money in their life time (me). but how does $7 billion compare to the deteriorating war in iraq?

it's pocket change.

the war estimates at a direct cost of $300 million a day, which translates into a couple of billion dollars a week and results in over $200 billion a year, according to an recent new york times article.

"The president and Republicans in Congress say that we can't afford this bill, but where were the fiscal conservatives when the president demanded hundreds of billions of dollars for the war in Iraq?" asked Rep. Jan Schakowsky, D-Illinois (

according to the article on, the program gives coverage to parents who make too much to qualify for medicaid but not enough to buy private insurance for their children.

hhmmmm...well that covers about every family I know.

critics have said their concern is that parents might be prompted to drop private coverage for their children to get cheaper coverage under the bill, according to cnn.

hmm...well considering our tax dollars are paying for it, it does make sense.
i don't think the program should be abused, but available to those in need. children are helpless and totally dependent on their parents (the government) for such things as health care.

"I think that this is probably the most inexplicable veto in the history of the country. It is incomprehensible. It is intolerable. It's unacceptable," said Sen. Edward Kennedy, D-Massachusetts, who pleaded with Republicans to help overturn the veto.

i thought the government acted as a voice for the people:

a washington post-abc news poll conducted September 27-30 found 72 percent of those surveyed support an increase in spending on the program, with 25 percent opposed. The poll's margin of error was 3 percentage points.

i guess i was wrong.

"The people are the only legitimate foundation of power, and it is from them that the constitution charter...derived. The government is and should be the servant of the people, and it should be fully accountable to them for their actions which it supposedly takes on their behalf."(an essay published by James Madison, the fourth president and known as the father of the constitution, in the Federalist Papers in 1788).

the veto is the fourth of bush's presidency. after not using his veto power at all during his first four years, the president has vetoed three other bills in his second term: two on stem-cell research legislation and one on a war funding bill with a democratic timetable for withdrawing u.s. troops from Iraq.

whhheww- i feel better.
thanks for listening to todays rant =)

Monday, September 24, 2007

a not-so-good samaritan

on thursday, there was a man standing in front of the atomic employee credit union, in waverly. the man seemed "normal" (whatever that means- he had on jeans, a plaid shirt and a hat), he had a book-bag and he held a large piece of cardboard that said, "CHILLICOTHE." obviously, the man was in distress, or at least needed a ride. my first instinct was to pick him up and give him a lift to chillicothe, but i resisted and kept driving. what if he was an axe-murderer or something?okay-seriously, what are the chances of that. he was probably just a guy that needed a ride, right. for some reason, i felt guilty for the rest of the day. i'm not sure why. regardless, i should have picked him up and enjoyed some company during my drive.

sadly, by sunday, i had forgotten about the stranded man-until i was reminded at church.

steve's message was about wealth (the condition in which we have more than enough of what we need in order to live life to the full) and discussed luke 12:13-21. he also briefly referenced "the parable of the good samaritan" in luke. i read the parable later that night. it says:

25 And behold, a lawyer stood up to put him to the test, saying, “Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?” 26 He said to him, “What is written in the Law? How do you read it?” 27 And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.” 28 And he said to him, “You have answered correctly; do this, and you will live.”
29 But he, desiring to justify himself, said to Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?” 30 Jesus replied, “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he fell among robbers, who stripped him and beat him and departed, leaving him half dead. 31 Now by chance a priest was going down that road, and when he saw him he passed by on the other side. 32 So likewise a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he journeyed, came to where he was, and when he saw him, he had compassion. 34 He went to him and bound up his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he set him on his own animal and brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 And the next day he took out two denarii [1] and gave them to the innkeeper, saying, ‘Take care of him, and whatever more you spend, I will repay you when I come back.’ 36 Which of these three, do you think, proved to be a neighbor to the man who fell among the robbers?” 37 He said, “The one who showed him mercy.” And Jesus said to him, “You go, and do likewise.”

steve suggested that following the parables will make your life more difficult. i agree. not only do i think it makes your life more difficult, but more rewarding. next time, i will be the good samaritan (someone who helps a person in distress) and "go the extra mile" (maybe literally). "a parable doesn't bully us into obedience; it invites us to respond." this was in our notes at church. a question was or is (in reference to luke 12:13-21: "will the wealth that you have lead you to extravagant power or to lavish generosity.
i enjoy meeting new people, regardless of the situation. i gave up the opportunity and ignored him instead. maybe he had an interesting story to tell me or a life lesson to teach me.

i guess i will never know.

Monday, June 18, 2007

hi there-

i recently started writing for the local paper.
i like it so far-much more freedom than you'd expect.
plus-there are so many interesting people out there to interview.

i would say that i've always been a writer-never a public writer or confident writer-just a writer.
since i'm a reporter now -i figure it's time to confront my fear of public judgement.

the truth is-i've never been good with confrontation either :)

i don't get the opportunity to voice my opinion in the newspaper- as you all know the media is not supposed to be biased. hopefully this blog will act as my defense as well as an outlet to freely voice my thoughts and opinions-with no grammar rules :)

thanks to anyone who reads :)